I love being awake when everyone is asleep. Especially if its at night. The sky is dark and the world seems silent. Seems rested, or perhaps resting. Sounds like its the same thing, but its really not. In turn, that quiet makes me feel rested. Almost free.
But it really sucks that i can't enjoy this beautiful starless night. Not because of excessive layers of smog and grime that envelope our atmosphere and hide the stars. Not because of unpleasant noises that drown out the serene silence. Everyone is alseep.. man, sister and kitty cats. Everyone except me.
Awake at 5 ish a.m. Tried to accomplish sleep several times already. Failed miserably. I am apparently not sleepy, says my mind, however, my entire body is telling me otherwise. Freaking go to sleep you stupid cow! We can't take it anymoreeeeeee....
Yet another internal conflict. I would normally love it - this night (not the conflict), this very kind of night. Its so quiet. Except for the sound of the computer humming or whatever you call that sound it makes. But that's almost not there. Like a heart beat, its so steady and constant, that you don't even realize it being there. Like elevator music. You only listen when you're paying attention. Or is that just me?
I feel like blogging and surfing and doing geeky computer stuff. Geeky is not a bad thing, if not taken to extremes.s.s. Sigh..If only if wasn't happening tonight.
I have class in 4 hours, which pretty much ruins the prospects of enjoying this magnifique night. Why? Here's why - because i have to quit fooling around here and get sleep. And because, i really, really don't like the idea of laying in bed and waiting for Her Majesty Sleep to arrive. Groan.
At least its a quiet night.
